Seven or six years ago, I was reading a Christian article; there I found a woman prayer. When I read that prayer, my heart was so touched that I could not help to re-write that prayer in my notebook. Then I prayed it to God.

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God hears your prayer – attentively-

As I have mentioned in the beginning, I prayed this prayer maybe about six or seven years ago. May I tell you what is God’s answer? He gave me exactly with what I was praying for. Yes, EXACTLY. What I was asking for, is given to me. Because this month is month of love (people celebrate valentine in this month), excuse me to use my own experience in my relationship. As I entered the relationship with my partner, I found he is not perfect, but God uses his imperfection to make me grow and depend solely on Him. He sharpens my character. Once I know him more, I knew that he is the man of God I am asking for. Exactly, like what I am asking for.

I am not telling you this to share how is my love story. What I am going to say is, pray! For God hears every prayer we pray for. I am sure He is willing to give everything we ask as long as it is for our goodness, and it draws us closer to Him and makes us grow more in Christ-like character. If we do not ask, how God can give it to you? It’s like that you are going to go somebody’s house. The door is closed. If you are not knocking, then how the host know that you are in front of his door? How could that door be opened to you?

Matthew 7

^“7Ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you. ⁸For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and the one who knocks, the door will be opened. ⁹Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? ¹⁰If you, then, though you are evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him.”  (New International Version)

James 5

¹³ Is anyone among you suffering? Then he must pray. (NASB)

Your prayer requires faith

I might not get the answer for my prayer in a night, or weeks or months, but in couple years. And, I might not have the man I was praying for if I did not have any faith. A faith that believes that God will give me the best answer for my prayer at the right moment -of course when I am ready-. If I did not have faith, if I did not trust God, I could choose my own “right” man, according to what I see and according to my own understanding. I will end up by my own choice, but will it be the best for me? I don’t think so.

Faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about we do not see. By faith Abraham, even knew Sarah, who was past childbearing age, was enabled to have a son, because he considered Him faithful who had made the promise.

“And will not God bring about Justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to Him day and night? Will he keep putting the off? I tell you, He will see that they get justice, and quickly. However when the Son of man comes, will he find faith on the earth?” (Luke 18:7-8, NIV)

See, God requires faith in us, to wait in hope for God to work on our prayer.

James 5

¹⁵ and the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well…. (NIV)

I am proposed!!!! My boyfriend finally asked me to be his partner of life, to become his wife. For me, this is like my dream comes true. My dream is to be married by someone in twentieth third. From senior high school, if I were talking with my friends about marriage, I said that I wanted to be married at the age of 22 or 23.  Indeed I am so happy. But I am so nervous about marriage. Whenever I think about it, my heart beats so fast. I don’t know why. Many questions keep haunting me. How if he is not the one? How is he is not good enough for me? How is our life in the future, especially in the finance area. Frankly, one of my friend just got boyfriend. She always tells me that she wants to get rich boyfriend, who could give her an assurance for her future, whenever she married to him. Then I thought, my boyfriend is not that rich, could he assure my future? Then my mom keeps telling me that I have to be selective about this. She told me that I have to find a husband like my brother in law, who does have everything right now. A husband who loves my family, not only me. A husband who is diligent, responsible to the family, and me, as a woman, I don’t need to work. My husband has to do it, work hard for me. My duty is only maintaining the household and children. Not only my mother, but also my big sister keeps telling me the same. And she wondered why I have to marry in the young age, I should have many opportunity to find the best from the best. 

What should I do? This is the most important decision I have to make in my life. I am speaking this because I realize that a marriage is only once. I must not make a wrong decision. DEFINITELY NOT.

I am confuse. The only way I can do is nothing but pray to God to help me. I pray to God to show me which path I should choose. I seek Him in His word. After two weeks in the confusion, I now understand two things. 

First of all, I feel so ashamed why I do not have faith in God. Why do I have to need an assurance from a merely human? My faith should be laid on Him only. He is the one who takes care of me. Why should I worry about finance, if He has been faithful to provide everything I need until now? Surely He will provide everything I need in the future.  

Secondly, Psalm 119:105 said that

“thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path”

(source : google)

Now a days, evil try hard to diverse us from the truth. Not all the suggestions are right and applicable. Be sure to digest it, and screen with the Words of God. I am not telling you that what my family suggest me are bad, but in this condition, I just need to be wiser to differentiate what is God’s view and what is world’s view. I do believe that my parent and my family always want the best for me. But what world thinks is good, sometime is not good in the sight of the Lord. Because evil has ruined the world, it tries to ruin the truth. 

For me, in this case, I just need to think what God thinks about marriage? Is it about us and us? Do I have to make sure that I am safe with my husband, physically, mentally and financially? As a human, I have. But once again, my refuge is in God only, as well as my hope. My life in God’s hand. As I see that marriage is His design, what He wants from one marriage? I am sure that He wants us - everyone who is called to be married- to being drawn closer to Him, not to depend on human –our husband/wife-.  I believe He is the one who initiated my relationship, one thing I ask from Him is even I have my free will, let Him become the one who control my life, get away something that is not the best for me to fulfill His plan. 

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.